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edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.05 21:32:00 -
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Today is a day of abject horror. I wake, not just of body but also of mind to the screaming self accusation "what have I done!"
I must recognise that I have committed grave errors of judgement, and worse, that I am a sinner and an actual heretic.
The brotherhood I have founded, in a dream of pursuit of all that was pure and good, founded on the eternal bedrock of truth of the Amarr has become corrupted at the highest levels. Subverted, twisted, it has become everything that it was created to fight against. So far spread was this corruption, that it even claimed myself.
The last gasp of good that lives inside me has forced me to this point, to a decision of finality. The brotherhood is no more.
I am disbanding the brotherhood. I throw myself upon the mercy of the Theology council, and of course I neither expect nor deserve any.
Mea Culpa, Mea Culpa.
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Jakiin
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Posted - 2009.11.05 22:05:00 -
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WHat an interesting turn of events. The more cynical side of me has already decided this is either a ploy or the result of some revelation of lost power, but if it is what it claims to be then I wish you luck on the path of Redemption.
We can only pray that the Council will have the wisdom to decide whether this fallen of the Lord shall be put to death, or merely enslaved until such a time as he has paid for his sins. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Jakiin Holder Heir of the Kingdom 'Pacifist Reclaimer' |
edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.05 22:10:00 -
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No ploy. Revelation of lost power? not aware that any ever existed.
Death or slavery, either are desirable if it leads to a correction to a true path.
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Aria Jenneth
Caldari Ghost Festival Naraka.
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Posted - 2009.11.05 22:48:00 -
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How curious.
Mr. Edeity, I'm sure you'll understand if I view your epiphany with some of the same skepticism as our Amarrian colleagues, but I also have to say that you've just become a much more intriguing person.
What becomes of you now, you may be sure I'll be observing with interest. God(s) guide you on your path.
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edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.06 00:06:00 -
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Doubt is all that I am worth. I accept this.
For my own part, I shall be focused on gaining finances from the very Blood Raiders that had led us astray, and use this to repay for all losses I inflicted upon CVA.
Please post any claims here. They shall be repaid.
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Sinjin Mokk
Amarr
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Posted - 2009.11.06 00:16:00 -
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Do not despair brother. God forgives. Faith, manages.
I can tell you precisely where you went astray. You put your conern into a group of men. While the battlemonks may have been a good idea, you put devotion to the group abouve your devotion to God and Empire.
The sense of loss and sorrow you must be feeling, is the absence of God in your life.
I am sure the Council will render an adequate judgement for your flesh. For your soul, you must needs be true in your desire to serve. Serve God and Empire without the petty ambitions of rank. Let the Council be your guide and you will find redemption.
All is not lost and you are never truely alone.
I will pray for you.
S.
Infidel defilers. They will all drown in lakes of blood. Now they will understand why they are afraid of the dark. Now they will learn why they fear the night. |
Grr
Amarr Epitoth Guard Curatores Veritatis Alliance
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Posted - 2009.11.06 00:34:00 -
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Heresy is a serious crime and it will take more than some monetary compensation to make things right. It will take time to earn our trust once more if ever.
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edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.06 00:51:00 -
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Of course any amount of isk is not enough. This is understood.
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Aria Jenneth
Caldari Ghost Festival Naraka.
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Posted - 2009.11.06 02:17:00 -
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Full backpedal mode engaged, Mr. Edeity?
I don't mean that, perhaps, quite so harshly as it sounds. It's understandable that you would hasten to recognize the magnitude of your error, and your lack of excuses or dissembling is refreshing.
However, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, and I'm sorry" doesn't make very interesting reading, as much as your sometime hosts/foes might appreciate it. I, personally, would like to see your analysis of your situation and how you arrived in it, as follows:
1. How do you see your "fall" as having come about? What attracted you to the Sani Sabik? What about yourself led you to the conclusion that it was the correct path?
2. What was it, precisely, that brought about your most recent epiphany? Was it a simple pang of conscience, or was there some more esoteric cause?
3. Presuming that you get the opportunity, how do you intend to proceed from here? Let's assume for the moment that whoever it is that ends up passing judgment on you regards your penitent spirit as genuine and chooses to be merciful. What do you mean to do, assuming that "serve God" is an insufficiently precise answer?
Please do forgive the curiosity of a heathen pirate-- I'm sure I'm not the only one who would be interested in some insight into your "error's" anatomy.
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Shiroi Okami
Gallente Neh'bu Kau Beh'Hude Ushra'Khan
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Posted - 2009.11.06 15:38:00 -
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Edited by: Shiroi Okami on 06/11/2009 15:39:16 I find this complete u-turn rather amusing considering what you claimed to be doing when you requested to JOIN Ushra'Khan and were subsequently refused even blue status. Something along the lines of having reformed and wanting to fight the coward slavers etc...
I must say I am not sorry to see a group of such disgusting, blood drinking individuals fall apart.
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Theophilas
Amarr Deus Imperiosus Acies
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Posted - 2009.11.06 16:02:00 -
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Originally by: Shiroi Okami Edited by: Shiroi Okami on 06/11/2009 15:39:16 I find this complete u-turn rather amusing considering what you claimed to be doing when you requested to JOIN Ushra'Khan and were subsequently refused even blue status. Something along the lines of having reformed and wanting to fight the coward slavers etc...
Is anyone familiar with the fable of the bat? Well, I will link it for the benefit of those unfamiliar with it...
Quote: A great conflict was about to come off between the Birds and the Beasts. When the two armies were collected together the Bat hesitated which to join. The Birds that passed his perch said: "Come with us"; but he said: "I am a Beast." Later on, some Beasts who were passing underneath him looked up and said: "Come with us"; but he said: "I am a Bird." Luckily at the last moment peace was made, and no battle took place, so the Bat came to the Birds and wished to join in the rejoicings, but they all turned against him and he had to fly away. He then went to the Beasts, but soon had to beat a retreat, or else they would have torn him to pieces. "Ah," said the Bat, "I see now, "He that is neither one thing nor the other has no friends."
I don't believe there is anything else I need to add to this discussion. -------------------------------------------------- Moral law is an invention of mankind for the disenfranchisement of the powerful in favor of the weak. Historical law subverts it at every turn. |
Shiroi Okami
Gallente Neh'bu Kau Beh'Hude Ushra'Khan
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Posted - 2009.11.06 22:32:00 -
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Well said Theophilas.
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Merdaneth
Amarr PIE Inc.
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Posted - 2009.11.07 00:18:00 -
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"Which test reveals more of the soul - the test that a man will take to prove his faith. or the test that finds the man who believed his faith already proven? If you know this answer, then you also know which of these challenges bear the greatest penalty for failure, the gates of paradise will open for you one time only; woe to the soul who dares to knock twice."
-Book of Missions, 5:14, The Scriptures
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The Illusion of Freedom | The Truth about Slavery |
edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.08 20:13:00 -
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It is easy to throw rocks at those who attempt to achieve things. It can be a comforting feeling to watch failure and say tut tut I told you so.
I congratulate you on your complete lack of any engagement and ability to see this as a form of moral superiority.
As posted elsewhere we were simultaneously betrayed within and without culminating in a CVA KOS without any discussion with me, despite my repeated attempts through diplomatic channels to engage in discussion. This in turn led to an evitable formal adoption of Sani Sabik belief as the only path before us and we sought alliance with everything that we had thought evil, as everything that was held good had turned against us.
So throw your rocks. Enjoy the warmth of complacency and inaction.
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Jakiin
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Posted - 2009.11.08 22:59:00 -
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Originally by: edeity As posted elsewhere we were simultaneously betrayed within and without culminating in a CVA KOS without any discussion with me, despite my repeated attempts through diplomatic channels to engage in discussion.
You seemed quite happy to go along with it, what with all of the posturing you did on Galnet and claims of CVA arrogance being the cause. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Jakiin Holder Heir of the Kingdom 'Pacifist Reclaimer' |
Stratio
Minmatar Mirkur Draug'Tyr Ushra'Khan
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Posted - 2009.11.09 11:41:00 -
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Originally by: edeity As posted elsewhere we were simultaneously betrayed within and without culminating in a CVA KOS without any discussion with me, despite my repeated attempts through diplomatic channels to engage in discussion. This in turn led to an evitable formal adoption of Sani Sabik belief as the only path before us and we sought alliance with everything that we had thought evil, as everything that was held good had turned against us.
So throw your rocks. Enjoy the warmth of complacency and inaction.
Instead of blaming others, take responsibility for your own actions! Circumstances will always limit your options and choices, but they still remain your choices.
When you can do that, maybe you will find more consistency and stability in your life.
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edeity
Holy Amarrian Battlemonk
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Posted - 2009.11.10 00:15:00 -
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Surely weaving a story with some level of interest is worth something.
Consistency is not a virtue if your consistently irrelevant.
However - I acknowledge I am in error and it is my fault and I have lessons to learn. I thought I had said this clearly at the start here. Nevertheless I restate this so there may be no confusion.
So.... Next set helpful criticism please fire away.
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