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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 04:31:00 -
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Good God! Some of what they're having me doing - and some from the Sisters of EVE!!! I'm already ashamed of one thing, and now this? For petty, petty reasons.
What have I done in becoming a capsuleer? Are we all driven to that same dark place - for money?
I'll have to start saying no. What else can I do?
This will kill me if I continue.
God! Or I just may have to go for post-human implants or something. Yay, Sansha wins.
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 04:49:00 -
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Originally by: Herzog Wolfhammer You seem upset. Please clarify.
Oh, it's been building up. I've always managed to see some higher purpose to what I've done for the Sisters... or anybody. But this seems like a personal vendetta, totally unbecoming (I'd be more specific but I don't feel that I should try to out the person).
I've just never walked away before. It was never my intention. Naive. Naive. Naive.
But I guess I'll have to. A crisis of faith? Maybe just a crisis of courage. But it makes me angry.
I think I'll be okay. Thank you for responding.
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 05:09:00 -
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Originally by: Thgil Goldcore ... Peace be with you.
Thank you for you words. What I'm figuring out is that it's they who need us. I'm no employee of theirs. I've signed no contract. I can just get in that ship and fly. That's the lesson I'm going to take from this.
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 17:22:00 -
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Personally, I think she's insane and I've decided to report her. I'll still give her a modicum of privacy, but I'll mention that she's in the Fahruni system. If you ever come across a dismissive you-know-what who thinks she's God's gift to the scientific community, then you'll know who I mean.
But hopefully she'll be out on her keister. If she thinks it's in any way representative of the Sisters to destroy things and kill people because of her... her... ego! then she has another think coming.
I can only say I hope I'm not wrong in believing that. I thought I knew the S.O.E. (though it's based mostly on a kid's-eye view). I still have hope.
And, believe me, I understand that I can be as goody-two shoes as I want and still be nothing but a monster in the eyes of many. I get that. But sometimes there are limits.
Thanks, posters, for all your good thoughts (I think even the Frentix-idea will come in pretty handy). I've thought about your words, have come to some conclusions, and they've made me stronger, I believe.
What a journey, eh?
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 22:52:00 -
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Originally by: Thgil Goldcore ... From what I can tell the sisters want you to do something you cannot bring yourself to do, am I correct?
I just wanted to apologize for not getting back to you to answer this right away. I was hoping for conversation, but developed some comm troubles. Anyway, you have a better idea now as to what was involved.
Originally by: Rek Jaiga If you want somebody to talk to, you can generally find a lot of pilots in the channel "The Summit". Best of luck on your trek among the stars, and Godspeed!
Thank you and I just may drop in!
It's been enlightening to find out that perhaps I'm not such an odd-duck after all.
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.03 23:32:00 -
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Originally by: Rek Jaiga ... Or in proper GalStandard, "Don't worry about it, the bad people will get what's coming to them sooner or later".
Hope that helps!
I've been playing in front of the mirror at being bad myself - not my style I've decided. I mean, why illustrate the obvious.
Best!
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Jascira
Amarr Animastra
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Posted - 2011.09.04 02:57:00 -
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Originally by: Rek Jaiga ..Huh? That was somewhat awkward, but endearing.
Yes, sorry about that. I was kind of playing at a dark side, like if I was a killer-extraordinaire and I didn't bother to change when I hooked into GalNet. I got embarrassed and, well... foot-in-mouth. Talk about hijacking my own thread!
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