Shufly
Gallente TRITANIUM MAFIA The Ancients.
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Posted - 2011.09.03 16:55:00 -
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Hello, Nakal, it's a pleasure to help in your literary works, and I hope that my own experiences can contribute to your efforts.
For me, I was raised in Fed, with a pretty diverse background of spiritual influences and hard science, leaving me with a mental mindset much mirroring my commonly used weapon systems, errm, hybrids. Too the point, when my training eventually came to the subject of cloning and inevitable death by some space issued catastrophe, I was left with little to reason with.
My mind tells me, the continuity of thought IS the soul, and that a "photograph" of info-morphology, is just that, a "Snapshot", a copy, nothing more, nothing less. The mind that would inhabit a new body for me would no longer be "Me", but some pretender, inheritor, holder of a legacy of my creation.
But my memories told me otherwise, my mother, of the intaki faith/spirituality, told me of the soul and it's mysteries, what we do and don't understand makes the universe what it is, that while science will guide us to where me must go, it is faiths job to help us live when we feel that we cannot.
Since my training 6 years ago, I've died only a few times, each one, a jump clone. My mind, being tossed into these bodies, I would wonder, if the original, IE, ME was just sleeping, dreaming. The doctors said that in that mind, there was terry a thought, a system completely in sleep mode, but I still wonder. To this day, my paranoia will not allow me to use my original body for fear of its loss, it stays at my home station like some macabre idol of my own life's accomplishment. I "inhabit" "it" for cases of recreation, for times when I speak with my family and friends, it brings me comfort, it brings me peace, and maybe some consistency, and appreciation for everything that Ive earned and lost (my fortune, my knowledge, and even my various crews).
Some call me a coward, but I feel that the loss of a cloned body somehow makes me feel more at home with "myself" than my own original body, and yet, it I have some level of personal disgust of my loss of crew in recent years, where the only sacrifice was a "minor" financial investment in a replacement body, compared to their permanent loss at the hands of my own mistake. I hope this helps. The higher path is not one with more weaponry, but one with the will to not use them.
~Shufucious |