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eveplayer11
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Posted - 2006.02.15 03:13:00 -
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Edited by: eveplayer11 on 15/02/2006 03:13:56 Im on anti-depressive pills, i have social fobia(or whatever its called in your language) and *bad* thoughts about life and myself. i realy know how its like and ive crushed friends both online and IRL, today i have 0 remaining of what used to be many. i KNOW how its like, even if i dont know how you feel, i know how it can be like. i play solo, because i know i dont work in a group, i cant be accepted and i cant trust in others. atleast you managed that for awhile
I hope that you know this: if you began taking the pills recently or 1-2 months ago, please notice that most anti-depressive pills will work the other way around making everything worse. and thats quite normal! so stick with it untill the real effect kick in dont change pills unless your doctor agrees, because its very normal that you get worse before the pills starts their magic. the good effects can take several months some even up to a year to kick in for certain pills, so i would recommend discussing it with your doctor if you didnt know that. i would also stay away from the game untill they start to kick in or when you feel you can handle things better after the "getting worse" period.
i wish you best of luck! and i hope your friends realy act like friends.
edit: i recomend that the thread gets closed before it all gets to be a spam fest for idiots..
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Teblin
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Posted - 2006.02.15 03:59:00 -
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Please keep this civil.
Benilopax, I hope you feel better soon. It took guts to do what you did in posting this.
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Rein Fallow
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Posted - 2006.02.15 04:11:00 -
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Why did this become "My problems are worse then yours" thread? I support the OP, so that's out of the way.
But if you've been to "Hell and back" then you shouldn't be here saying "My problems are this and this, and I think that mine are alot worse then yours" because that's what some of these posts look like. All of the ones I saw were directed NOT towards the OP, BTW. If you've been to "Hell and back" you should be here saying "/signed" or "Get better, we're here for you" and leaving it at that. And this really isn't the place/topic to be talking about YOUR issues, when someone else wants some support/whatever. I'm not talking to anyone directly, and I'm trying to be polite, BTW. I respect anyone who's been through bad(Awful? I dunno.) things, and can get up in the morning and say "**** happens." So...Yeah. I had kind of an amatuer therapy thing going on after this, but I cut it, and I think there may be some of that in the start of this rant/paragraph/whine/whatever, so edit it/delete it if you think so mods. :) *Goes back to doing what he was doing, nothing.* ------------------------------------------------ //////\ /\ ///(------) O-( ^_^ )-O ///(------) ///////|
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Sergeant Spot
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Posted - 2006.02.15 04:29:00 -
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In response to Benilopax
The "intent" to become a better person is a magical thing. If you have that "intent", and work towards it, slowly, bit by bit, it becomes reality. If you have a failure in your attempts, pick yourself and keep up the effort.
As for psychiatric drugs, doctor perscribed or not, it is my FIRM belief (from ugly personal experence as a child decades ago) that somewhere between 95% and 99% are more harmful than good (in maybe 1% of case, there is a actual need for them). For kids, most such drugs are not to help the child, but to help the parent by doping the kid, which in the long run fixes nothing and only makes things worse. (I've long sense forgiven my parents and they've long sense realized their mistake. My experience had a happy ending in SPITE of the drugs.....)
There "might" be a true need for such medical drugs for you, maybe, but also, maybe not. Seek medical advice from psychiatrists that state that they have a "minimalist" view on drugs (minimalist = "some needed in rare cases, but usually none needed). It bears repeating, sometimes there are real needs and valid uses for such medications, but only rarely.
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Rein Fallow
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Posted - 2006.02.15 04:45:00 -
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Whoops, above post was meant to be from this guy. Darn market checking alts. ------------------------------------------------ //////\ /\ ///(------) O-( ^_^ )-O ///(------) ///////|
Yes. Yes, that is Kirby on a uni-cycle. |
kkkke
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Posted - 2006.02.15 04:45:00 -
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Originally by: Sergeant Spot In response to Benilopax
The "intent" to become a better person is a magical thing. If you have that "intent", and work towards it, slowly, bit by bit, it becomes reality. If you have a failure in your attempts, pick yourself and keep up the effort.
QFT
May not agree with everything you say, but that's far-and-beyond true, right there.
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Ubel Feuer
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Posted - 2006.02.15 04:57:00 -
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If anything, I hope this helps the dev team to see just how powerful their game can be.
Get better soon.
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Benilopax
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Posted - 2006.02.15 15:18:00 -
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I can honestly say that when i saw a gold bar next to this thread I felt a lump in my throat. So many of you have wished me well and I thank you all for it.
Unfortunately my corp did not agree that i should remain and i was kicked while i was at home making some decisions. I don't blame them for this action it was their choice and i remain loyal to them and consider them friends.
So what has happened....
Well on monday I decided that I had taken all I could from life at UNI and wen't home. A surprise to my housemates and family I can assure you. After two days talking and thinking things over I decided to return to face what I was up against. I wen't to the doctor and he prescribed a new medication in order to stop the side effects while keeping my stomach healthy.
He also advised that I needed to stop and rest and get myself sorted. To that end I have decided that I need a break from stress and will quit my uni course for the year and pick it up again in september, to repeat the second year. This gives me a six month "vacation" in which to get better and also relax and maybe see some of the world before returning to start again.
On the eve front im gonna ease off gently the shock of just leaving was hard. I may stick with some light admin duties in my alliance or just stay in scope and do my own thing. However leadership and politics is definatly out.
Be assured I will return eventually. As I know in my heart that this game is on the brink of greatness. And im proud to say that I help build it like each and every one of you did aswell.
Thats all for now.
Goodnight and Goodluck
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Skaz
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Posted - 2006.02.15 15:36:00 -
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Get better man..
/signed - -
"No, I'm not alt.....even if I have been in Pator Tech School for nearly 3 years..." |
Kurren
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Posted - 2006.02.15 15:46:00 -
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Don't bother seeing Houston, TX... it'll just cause more stress each time you have to sit in traffic just to run to the store! Good luck to ya though, man.
All the best, Kurren
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SobaKai.com
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HippoKing
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Posted - 2006.02.15 15:46:00 -
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this thread gets a big "wow" and i'm glad to see you're getting back on track.
all the best
sigs of the 23/24/25 hijack just as well -eris yarrrr, i shall retake my sig -HippoKing Not a chance, our 1337 sig haXx0r sk1llz are too powerful! - Wrangler Ho-Ho-Hooooooo, Merry Saturday!11 - Immy Yo ho ho and a bottle of BReeEEEEeee.... - Jacques ARRRRRRchambault |
GouldFish
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Posted - 2006.02.15 16:22:00 -
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I hope things get better dude.
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Benilopax
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Posted - 2006.02.15 16:23:00 -
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Originally by: Debolika
Whoa there buddy, don't go off on some half-ass tirade because people like me have a 'mental toolbox' that is able to sort OUR issues out without drugs and the like...
You are right about one thing, people who deal with the not-so-kind aspects of life in a way that doesn't force them into a depressive state, don't understand those of you who are weaker in this regard...
I have been to hell and back, taken the worst turns in my life and about screwed myself over into oblivion, yet you don't hear me complaining about my woes... The one thing I would want to hear from you supposed "victims" is to say that those of us that don't have depression are indeed 'stronger'... Any takers?
Just a quick word to this guy. YOU DISGUST ME!
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Martinus Crimson
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Posted - 2006.02.15 16:29:00 -
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Just ignore him, clear your quotes and i'm sure the mods will delete his post/warn him for his remark.
And to Benilopax, good to read that update, shame your corp wasn't as understanding.
Take care mate. -----------------
^^ Now i got my own exotic dancers, thnx Chribba |
Varis
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Posted - 2006.02.15 17:24:00 -
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Best of luck beni!
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Go Team
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Posted - 2006.02.15 17:48:00 -
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Already said my best wishes, but i would also like to say:-
Big up to the EVE community and mods. The support to Ben has been amazing, as I'm sure you all agree. /GT pats everyone on the back who was nice......
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Morgit Seebring
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Posted - 2006.02.15 18:27:00 -
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Have only just caught up on this. Well done Benilopax. A fellow sufferer salutes you.
To the Eve community, I salute you also. There was no need for any of you to say anything, but you did. All tried to help in their own way, imo, and that is a great thing (although I do not agree with all posters, I have to believe that all meant well). I had to take some time out of Eve previously, and returned. I found myself getting drawn in again, but have managed to back off my corp intentions and responsibilities.
RL is the main objective. No amount of ISK is going to get your problems solved outside of Eve, but Eve can help you deal with stuff. Mindless mining, ninja mining through Alliance borders, or mindless blasting of npc's and mission running all have their therapeutic elements. I stay out of low sec cos I'm not sure how I would (RL) handle the loss I know will come. Eve is powerful. RL is more important.
Morgit
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Entil Za
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:11:00 -
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Hope is all works out Ben. All the best :)
ASCN |
Mrmuttley
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:20:00 -
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Hey man. You got some big balls coming on the forum and saying all that
Hope you get your sh1t back together soon ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
CEO of the Smoking Hillbilly's
Check out SMK
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Benilopax
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:22:00 -
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As you know my alliance kicked me out. But they also banned me so as im hated so much why not put away childish things and become a pirate and attack them all the time.
So I have through Darkon Gatland my slave. "Irony"
I belive letting go and just playing to have fun with pvp is just what I need. So I now say.....
Goodbye FREGE!!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!!!!!!!
Watch out EVE you just got a new AVON/Tank CEO!
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Wrayeth
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:31:00 -
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Edited by: Wrayeth on 15/02/2006 19:34:30
EDIT: I've been getting flak from my corp for wanting to go out and PvP in places where you don't immediately get outblobbed 30-to-1, and I'm in the exact same boat as you as far as needing to just let it go and have fun. Sometimes you have to just go out and do it and damn the consequences - after all, having fun is why we pay to play, right? -Wrayeth
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Vishar
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:33:00 -
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Dear G0D! The drama...
I think i'm gonna puke.
p.s. they will probably ban me from the boards for this... but lordy... personal matters shouldn't be laundered on public forums imo... it just comes off as *poor-me-ism* to the extreme.
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Wrayeth
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:36:00 -
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Originally by: Vishar Dear G0D! The drama...
I think i'm gonna puke.
p.s. they will probably ban me from the boards for this... but lordy... personal matters shouldn't be laundered on public forums imo... it just comes off as *poor-me-ism* to the extreme.
Post with your main so I can set my personal standings and pod you a few thousand times.
Thank you, and have a nice day. -Wrayeth
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Vishar
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Posted - 2006.02.15 19:50:00 -
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Originally by: Wrayeth
Originally by: Vishar Dear G0D! The drama...
I think i'm gonna puke.
p.s. they will probably ban me from the boards for this... but lordy... personal matters shouldn't be laundered on public forums imo... it just comes off as *poor-me-ism* to the extreme.
Post with your main so I can set my personal standings and pod you a few thousand times.
Thank you, and have a nice day.
It is my main. Feel free.
And I am sure that is why many have not expressed this view point ... too many people looking for an excuse:)
People always look for a crusade, Turks and English had a great time ruining peoples lives for a "cause"... it was called the crusades.
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Dao 2
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Posted - 2006.02.15 21:28:00 -
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Hope you get better and will come back to eve eventually, everyone else here had nice suggestions. ------------------------------------------------ NEWLY ADDED ON 1/19 (though applies to all posts before ;p)
the usual "I don't represent my corp or alliance" and stuffs like that
Also the gal |
Capsicum
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Posted - 2006.02.15 21:42:00 -
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Thread cleaned.
If you don't have anything nice to say, please don't say anything at all.
I urge you not to test me on this point
-Capsicum
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Hermia
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Posted - 2006.02.15 21:58:00 -
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Edited by: Hermia on 15/02/2006 22:04:17
Originally by: Benilopax Well on monday I decided that I had taken all I could from life at UNI and wen't home. A surprise to my housemates and family I can assure you. After two days talking and thinking things over I decided to return to face what I was up against. I wen't to the doctor and he prescribed a new medication in order to stop the side effects while keeping my stomach healthy.
He also advised that I needed to stop and rest and get myself sorted. To that end I have decided that I need a break from stress and will quit my uni course for the year and pick it up again in september, to repeat the second year. This gives me a six month "vacation" in which to get better and also relax and maybe see some of the world before returning to start again.
On the eve front im gonna ease off gently the shock of just leaving was hard. I may stick with some light admin duties in my alliance or just stay in scope and do my own thing. However leadership and politics is definatly out.
This is so strange, your story is pretty much the parrallel of mine. I started uni a few years ago, and had to quit through some strange depression i cant fully explain, only that somehow i burned out.
Firstly i got better through leaving eve and only corp ive ever been entertained by "Jericho Fraction", i was only there for a very short time, however i left these GREAT people when first day at uni hit. Thats the thing, you cant be serious about eve and uni at the same time. I just log on now and again, doing a mission here and there.
But im better for it, and im pleased that your doing a similar thing, its the right decision. Life is good for me now, just today i found out that i got 70% and 76% for two peaces of course work, and my mathematics exam went well (although im not allowed to know the mark yet ).
JF to me are still legendary, but i know i would fail my course if i regained contact Thats life.
Edit: oh and im in no way as brave as you, i could never present the level of detail you did
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Uther Doull
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Posted - 2006.02.15 22:16:00 -
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can i have their stuff?
on a more serious note, hope you get well soon
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Leet Al
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Posted - 2006.02.15 22:24:00 -
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Best of luck, Ben. trapped in signature factory , send help! -crc |
Womble God
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Posted - 2006.02.16 00:32:00 -
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dear ben,
You are a very brave man. To admit in such a public place, and in front of total strangers, that you are suffering from something like this takes great courage. We all could learn something from the way you have handled both your illness and your acceptance of it. Too few people realise just how hard it can be to deal with anxiety, paranoia and depression. Games like this one can be a great outlet for stress but as others here have pointed out, when the game itself becomes a source of stress then it is time to take a step back. It makes me feel that there is hope for the human race when so many strangers can come together and offer support to another stranger, simply because they are another human being. I tend to think (optimistically some say) that if we all behaved this way more often, then we would all be better off. I offer you whatever help I can, one human to another, and my deepest hopes that you can recover what you have lost. Take care Ben. May you take comfort in the kidness of strangers Killing Smurfs without prejudice since 1978 |
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