A few things first. this is an alt on my neutral hauler account, I am in the cfc, my corp is barely limping along, and this will be a long post.

I used to be a miner, and then an indy player. My first corp wound up merging with a null mining corp, made friends had fun shooting rocks and chatting. Then my CEO who we had all grown rather fond of awoxed us all, took all of our stuff. and taught me not to trust people no matter how long you play with them in eve. Not that I am weepy or sad about it, to be honest I thought it was pretty incredible.

Well then I struck out on my own. I was mining in an npc corp, watching netflix, when some guys came up and ganked me. I said something there sexual identity, asked if they wanted to make out, if they there mom was hot and looking for a real man....and eventually got recruited into the corp.

The guys in the corp were awesome, then some left, and less awesome people took their place, the cycle repeated until I liked only a few of them. During this cycle we had gone from low sec, to high sec, and back all the while looking for a shot to get into null. Apparently I entered the corp on its downswing and they had been big nullsec players in the past. We got into npc null, people got bored with the welp fleets, the terrible nrds lostfest, and the general feeling of nothing to do. A lot left, then we left. T

The CEO took a break giving it to one of the only guys in corp I like, but who doesn't want to lead and hates having to accept the burden. So he thrusts us into the only CFC alliance that would accept us and we just are kinda sitting here. Once again people are leaving. There is very little reason to undock other than to be harpy #76 in the long stream of boring stat ops. Some of us have billions and find the tedium of null ratting too much, others have nearly nothing and are too scared of cloakies to do anything. Everyone likes to whine, except a few, and besides myself no one is willing to say they are not enjoying null to the few that are.

At this point I don't know what to do. I do not like being in Null, it bores me. Fleets and pvp seem to lose meaning when everyone does what they are told and if they lose something it is replaced. I have made tons of money. 15 billion and counting, more than enough since I am half a year a way to sitting comfortably in any capital ship. I hate it here, but I have grown fond of my corp with age. A sort of Stockholm Syndrome if you would. People leave, I try to stop them. But those I do stop from leaving, have my feeling guilty since they have the mental fortitude to do what I can't. Guess thats why they call it Windowpane.

What does this illustrious board suggest?