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Kaleigh Doyle
Renua Foundation
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Posted - 2007.03.23 00:57:00 -
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Ladies and Gentlemen,
It has been nearly two weeks since I last addressed the public to pacify rumors of my demise, and during this period I've been contacted by fellow pilots conveying their best wishes on the road to recovery. Others have been there when I've needed friends the most and they have proven with each selfless act their value in character. It is for this reason alone that I can attribute such a profound success in my treatments, which speaks volumes more in appreciation than my thoughts could ever convey adequately. Nevertheless, I feel special mention is deserved for my close friends Horatio Cain and Revy Daidros, without whom I would not be in space today without their presence.
Still, many others have answered the call for information regarding the mysteries of the Great Gate in New Eden. Invaluable data has been accumulated in large part to the charity and willingness of my fellow pilots to share their knowledge, and in conjunction with the vast archives of the Sisters of Eve will prove as a sturdy launching point for our investigations at Renua Foundation. On the basis of confidentiality, the names of the individuals who contributed will be left undisclosed, but be assured that your efforts will never go unacknowledged by myself. However, until a few days ago this data seemed promising yet left far too many doors opened with no answer clearly visible and it seemed as if this task would be daunting at best.
Two nights ago, I had experienced what would one might describe as a vision. At first I had feared the worst, as an excruciating sensation overcame my body and I was rendered inert by such incredible pain I nearly fell unconscious. The bandages covering my hands are a grim reminder the levels of tension gripping my muscles as fingernails burrowed deep into my palms. Bed sheets stained with blood, I lay there helpless and alone, unable to free myself of this agony, and as the darkness threatened to envelop my sight, the first of two images appeared before me.
Floating weightless as if a corpse in the great vacuum, a massive circular portal glowing azure with fiery energy flickered to life before me. My body continued to suffer through the intolerable sensations as emotions of hatred, despair, and sadness overwhelmed my psyche and drew streams of bloodstained tears from the corners of my eyes. My eyelids apart, I gaped in helpless agony as these terrible feelings seemed to feed the light as it grew ever brighter with each passing moment leaving me drained, until I had nothing left to give. In all my years in this existence I've never felt such acute agony and as my eyes were consumed with light, my only wish was to die and end this torment once and for all.
And then...it simply stopped.
Receptors gave way to pain as a sensation of euphoria consumed every last inch of my body. Muscles relaxed and adrenaline flooding through my veins, the blinding light subsided once more revealing the massive circular object. Awash in comforting warmth, the light subsided completely and I could feel my body being drawn into the center of the ring as a sensation of pure happiness seeped into my soul. A familiar feeling, not unlike many moments being transported over great distances through a stargate, was the last memory before my senses returned to my bedroom, dizzying and confused.
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Kaleigh Doyle
Renua Foundation
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Posted - 2007.03.23 00:57:00 -
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I believe someone or something is relaying a message through me, and I'm sharing this experience with you today in the hope there may be others who have been 'contacted' in this way. The Answer lies beyond the Great Gate; the pure sensation of happiness where I believe our destiny belongs. The anomaly, this spatial distortion of intense light, is what traps us in this universe until we are worthy. The pain experienced is just a representation of the hardships we experience in this life as we struggle and fight amongst ourselves. Only when we learn to overcome our jealousy and distrust and learn to thrive as a single people living in harmony will the anomaly dissipate, allowing us to enter the Promised Land.
I know many of you will read this and cast it aside as madness, but I emplore you to search deep within and find that feeling in your heart. Pointless wars and petty bickering over imaginary lines of territory; lashing out in blind arrogance from voiceless Gods; selling out your brethren for the almighty ISK. The real madness is perpetuating the well worn path of self-destructive anarchy and expecting a different outcome.
Find peace within yourself, and The Answer will come to you. Renew yourself and start living the life we're truly destined for.
Thank you, xoxo
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Alexi Borizkova
Caldari New Age Solutions New Age Solutions Amalgamated
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Posted - 2007.03.23 06:40:00 -
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Actress, arms dealer, cultist, corpse, and now... seer? Or are you shooting for prophet, messiah, or demagogue?
There is a limit to new leaves that may be turned over, and I believe you have reached it. If you desire the public spotlight so badly, you could always go back to films, that dysfunctional lifestyle seems to suit you more than existence in the real world, where people generally just wear one hat.
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Mr Vapor
Minmatar Stormriders Fimbulwinter
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Posted - 2007.03.23 09:31:00 -
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You know, Alexi, the one thing that gets to me about people like you? You contribute nothing to the gene pool. You're bound by jealousy. You disregard this woman as someone unworthy of attention yet you lavish it on her because you know that by doing so, someone will pay a little bit of attention to you.
Yet, Ms. Doyle is the pathetic one?
You and people like you are worms, fit only to digest your own excrement and spew it forth for others to examine. You are titled to an opinion, that's very true. Too bad your opinion is totally unoriginal. You make a list of things Ms. Doyle has done and then condemn her for doing them all. Now tell me, oh ye of little mind, what exactly have you done that is noteworthy in this life? I know of Ms. Doyle and have known of her for years. You...ha, you are an insignificant speck on the radar. Perhaps you should forge your own way instead of living vicariously through others?
Ms. Doyle, continue on with your quest. It's another noteworthy endeavor in a spectacular life.
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Kaleigh Doyle
Renua Foundation
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Posted - 2007.03.23 11:40:00 -
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Wear one hat?
*laughs*
Good goddess, you're a silly man Alexi, and yet I adore you for being one of my biggest fans. Being a connoisseur of all things glamorous, wearing a hat more than once would be a faux pas of the highest order. Perhaps you could use a bit of a vacation yourself dear, you seem a bit tense. I'll send you some holoreels and you can kick back on a remote pleasure planet and enjoy yourself for once.
All all quips aside, the point you made is a fair one and I certainly expect a measure of doubt from the minds of many. But, Luminaire wasn't built in a day and if just one person takes heed of my words with an open mind and heart then they will not have been in vain. I fully admit that my life has been a turbulent wave of highs and lows, and there are some days when I wonder how I've survived any of this, but I realize now that I have purpose beyond my own selfish needs and there is something greater to achieve than the physical.
*blows a kiss to Mr. Vapor*
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Malakhan
Gallente Phoenix Wing Alektorophobia
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Posted - 2007.03.23 12:59:00 -
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Kaleigh my dear, how wonderful it is to see you as beautiful as ever. ---
We are recruiting!
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Revy Daidros
Gallente Digital Roar
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Posted - 2007.03.23 14:41:00 -
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I would like to add a few things of important note.
Firstly, to you Kaleigh, you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit. Yes you have friends who will always be around, whenever you have need of them, not because you're lucky, or because of your beauty, but because you have proven your character is strong, your sense of purpose is strong. And people flock to that, especially in such a verse largely devoid of it. To hear what you have recently been through pains me... but it also excites me!
You have set out to find answers, answers that may lead you winding down a dangerous spiral of truth and destiny. Though this path may be dangerous, I firmly believe that your resolve and inner strength will pull you through to the end.
I have offered you my everything in pursuing these goals, and hope to uncover the meaning behind this experience you went through. If I can be of help in any way, I will lend any resource I have to uncovering the truth.
To Alexi I have but one thing to say:
It pains me to see a life wasted with comments like that. Everyone goes through experiences in life, Ms. Doyle vocalizes hers and you condemn her for it? I wonder sir, how many experiences you care not to share with this community. It is your prerogative to keep your experiences to yourself, just as much as it is hers to share them.
Everyone enjoy the day- it might be the last gift you're given!
<Broken Strands> |
Falcione
Mortis Angelus
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Posted - 2007.03.23 15:05:00 -
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While Alexi's statement may have been a bit brash... I think its safe to say that the majority of us pilots may find your story a bit bewildering. After being bound to the physical so much in this galaxy, (and with the recent reintroduction of neural boosters into the (black) market)... tales of visions from the EVE Gate aren't the easiest things to put stock in...
Nevertheless... if you find something interesting let us know. Nothing wrong with sharing your "experiences" in my book...
My Bio in Progress Prologue / CH.1 |
Tomahawk Bliss
INTAKI UNION The OSS
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Posted - 2007.03.23 17:21:00 -
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Originally by: Mr Vapor
Yet, Ms. Doyle is the pathetic one?
Indeed she is. and Mr. Vapor when Doyle changes to another track in a month or two, having gotten bored with this new hysteria, you are going to look foolish for so vehemently defending her newest distraction. Because that is what it is.
Alexi hit the nail on the head and just because you are friendly to Doyle doesn't mean he is wrong. get over it, she is a washed-up holoreel actress scrounging for the spot light. whats next a holo show based on her day to day life, some sort of reality show perhaps?
its past time to turn the channel on this pod pilots episode..
Gogo Yubari> You can't destroy your enemy with the power of thought alone like many forum-warriors seem to think. GLBTA Channel |
Wren
Minmatar Masuat'aa Matari Ushra'Khan
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Posted - 2007.03.23 17:32:00 -
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Originally by: Tomahawk Bliss
its past time to turn the channel on this pod pilots episode..
Then why don't you, no one forces you to access anything with her name on it. -----------------------------------
Wren says: "Chirpy Chirp Chirp.... DAMNIT!" |
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Rana Ash
Minmatar Aeon Trinity
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Posted - 2007.03.23 17:46:00 -
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While i find this intresting Kaleigh hun, i feel the need to caution you. All may not be as they seem, i do hope you will keep a healthy distance to these visions. And think them over with a critical mind, it is easy to get lost..
Ļon Trinity is recruting, inquire within for details lyret dedreen
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Koshmarnaya Akula
Khanid Provincial Vanguard Khanid Provincial Authority
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Posted - 2007.03.23 18:57:00 -
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I hear they have medication that can help this kind of problem.
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Agustus Caesar
Minmatar Caesar and Sons Salvaging
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Posted - 2007.03.23 19:18:00 -
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Originally by: Wren
Originally by: Tomahawk Bliss
its past time to turn the channel on this pod pilots episode..
Then why don't you, no one forces you to access anything with her name on it.
Isn't it obvious? The Ammatar git is jealous of the fact that people actually like and respect Kal, hence why he flames every thread that so much as mentions her. It's best to just ignore his childish behavior and ignore him, he'll throw a temper tantrum but he'll move on much quicker. -----------------------------
"Our nation, may she always be right, but our nation right or wrong" - Unknown |
Robert Kauliford
Delictum 23216
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Posted - 2007.03.23 19:21:00 -
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I personally do not question whether this vision is genuine or induced. However I do have my reservations about the source of this vision. Though on the surface your interpretation seems sound I feel in my gut that there is something terribly wrong with what you have seen. I do not know much of your past so I cannot judge but I will be intersted to learn if you see something similar in the future. Remember just as God can send us visions so can His enemies
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Revy Daidros
Gallente Digital Roar
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Posted - 2007.03.23 19:51:00 -
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Mr. Kauliford, you bring up a most interesting point.
Recently I too was involved in a plot that warped my thoughts and left my last body trapped in a web of illusions. Unfortunately it ended with my untimely demise. I still recall the waking dreams and horrible siren speaking to me- calling me to it.
It is an intriguing thought that this too could be from a malignant source, and discretion indeed seems the best way to progress forward. But for what purpose. That seems to yet be unexplained. There is much in this universe that is left unexplained, powers too vast to be summed and quantified. The gate is perhaps the single most widely recognized enigma, and yet it is perhaps the one thing we know the least about.
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Koshmarnaya Akula
Khanid Provincial Vanguard Khanid Provincial Authority
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Posted - 2007.03.24 00:47:00 -
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Enigma?
Perhaps I'm misinformed.
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Revy Daidros
Gallente Digital Roar
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Posted - 2007.03.24 02:19:00 -
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An enigma is a puzzle or mystery. The word comes from the ancient Greek word, αἴνιγμα (ainigma). I was of course referring to the obvious mysteries surrounding the gate and its current state of (in)activity.
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Koshmarnaya Akula
Khanid Provincial Vanguard Khanid Provincial Authority
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Posted - 2007.03.24 06:47:00 -
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Here I just believed all the hype that God was ****ed that the Amarrians haven't cleansed everything yet.
Go figure. You learn something new every day.
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Cipher7
Sebiestor tribe
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Posted - 2007.03.24 14:25:00 -
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No idea where you're going with this Kaleigh, but good luck.
Merrily merrily life is but a dream...
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Nachshon
Caldari Gradient Namtz'aar k'in
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Posted - 2007.03.24 23:15:00 -
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It seems you have found your path, Kaleigh Doyle. May the Maker watch over you as you travel it. __________________________________________ What I say should not be taken as the position of Gradient or NMTZ.
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Sepherim
Amarr Ordo Quaesitoris
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Posted - 2007.03.25 17:12:00 -
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Miss Doyle, neither the consumption of drugs, nor blood can lead you to contact with God. That requires extreme religious zeal, understanding of His ways, education, and a mind open to His Greatness. No pod-pilot can achieve such a high thing, since our flesh is not pure enough. I recommend you to dismay that as a bad dream and go on with your life, or else you will fall into the dark and terrible pits of madness. --------------------- Signature removed due to incorrect size (400X120px and 24000 bytes). Please review the forum rules or e-mail us with any questions. You can view you signature here - Petwraith Ordo Quaesitoris Forum |
Frater Patroabo
Gallente Placid Reborn The Cyrene Initiative
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Posted - 2007.03.27 02:37:00 -
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Kaleigh:
Thank you for the description of your recent spiritual experience. You and I have already corresponded on some of the concepts of the OTE, so it should come as no surprise that I find your experience beneficial to you. This no matter what anyone else may think or perceive.
Now that you've had such a major experience, though, I'd give you one caveat: Beware of the "lust of result." When one is seeking new knowledge, especially which doesn't come from "accepted" science, it's easy to think that if you don't have the same dramatic experience as you describe, there is no experience at all. The Universe will disclose to you what it chooses to reveal, and in the manner it thinks is best. Keep your mind and self open to all new messages.
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Frater Patroabo
Gallente Placid Reborn The Cyrene Initiative
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Posted - 2007.03.27 02:57:00 -
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Originally by: Rana Ash While i find this intresting Kaleigh hun, i feel the need to caution you. All may not be as they seem, i do hope you will keep a healthy distance to these visions. And think them over with a critical mind, it is easy to get lost..
Actually, Rana puts what I tried to say a lot more clearly and succinctly.
Fr. P.
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Frater Patroabo
Gallente Placid Reborn The Cyrene Initiative
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Posted - 2007.03.27 02:58:00 -
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Edited by: Frater Patroabo on 27/03/2007 03:02:25
Originally by: Koshmarnaya Akula I hear they have medication that can help this kind of problem.
Not medication. Meditation.
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Frater Patroabo
Gallente Placid Reborn The Cyrene Initiative
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Posted - 2007.03.27 03:06:00 -
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In my mind, it doesn't matter one whit whether the Eve Gate physically exists, ever existed, or is a myth spurred by one too many Quafes and brandy. It inspires many to look both into the microcosm and the macrocosm. The two are related: as above, so below. As Kaleigh explores for the Eve gate, the more important discoveries she makes will be about herself and her place in the Great Work of the Universe. Just like others stated above, she must be cautious and proceed deliberately with a very open self. That's the hazard of exploration and research, be it spiritual or particle physics.
Finally, where does it say that a mystic or spiritual person has to be 1) poor, 2) ugly, 3) socially unacceptable, or 4) dress like his/her clothes came from dockside in the Syndicate?
Life, Light, Love, and Liberty Fr. P.
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Sepherim
Amarr Ordo Quaesitoris
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Posted - 2007.03.27 22:09:00 -
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Originally by: Frater Patroabo Finally, where does it say that a mystic or spiritual person has to be 1) poor, 2) ugly, 3) socially unacceptable, or 4) dress like his/her clothes came from dockside in the Syndicate?
Ever wondered why the Gallente don't have Faith? Easy, because God won't speak to them. You need deep faith, meditation, purity, self-knowledge, education,... and then, you need to be chosen by God for it, which requires being one of his Chosen to start with. --------------------- Signature removed due to incorrect size (400X120px and 24000 bytes). Please review the forum rules or e-mail us with any questions. You can view you signature here - Petwraith Ordo Quaesitoris Forum |
Frater Patroabo
Gallente Placid Reborn The Cyrene Initiative
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Posted - 2007.03.28 19:38:00 -
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Oh, I have all sorts of faith. I have faith that my ship will make it through Ostingele when there's a Turby Convention going on there. I have faith that an Incursus going up against a Battleship is probably not going to make it.
But I have a gnosis that god is in everything and everyone. It's not a matter of "faith." I know.
"everything and everyone" includes Amarr, their slaves, and even Kaleigh. And those bloody Turbies who camp Ostingele. But there's much more to it than that: how are we linked, can the links be strengthened, are they represented by physical manifestations, etc. etc. etc. The issue of God is a complex issue. Simple explanations only satisfy simple minds.
Life, light, love, and liberty.
Fr. P.
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Rakiro
Gallente Two Brothers Mining Corp.
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Posted - 2007.03.29 12:39:00 -
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Edited by: Rakiro on 29/03/2007 12:41:07 Just to re-iterate a point I mentioned in a previous transmission...
Miss Doyle, while I don't doubt for a moment that you have indeed had some kind of experience which was clearly confusing and appeared to be spiritual in nature, I would strongly suggest you either consult with your ship's medical officer assuming you have one, or visit the infirmary next time you make port to have a diagnostic run on your cybernetics.
Like I said in my previous transmission, the Eve gate is a known source of unstable subspace anomalies and their effects on people equipped with pod interface cybernetics have not been fully documented. -Rakiro |
Sepherim
Amarr Ordo Quaesitoris
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Posted - 2007.03.30 00:36:00 -
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Originally by: Frater Patroabo Oh, I have all sorts of faith. I have faith that my ship will make it through Ostingele when there's a Turby Convention going on there. I have faith that an Incursus going up against a Battleship is probably not going to make it.
Just listen to yourself and you will realize the difference. As you say, you have "faith". I am not talking about faith, but of Faith. There is a big distance, for only one Faith deserves the capitol "F".
Quote: But I have a gnosis that god is in everything and everyone. It's not a matter of "faith." I know. "everything and everyone" includes Amarr, their slaves, and even Kaleigh. And those bloody Turbies who camp Ostingele. But there's much more to it than that: how are we linked, can the links be strengthened, are they represented by physical manifestations, etc. etc. etc. The issue of God is a complex issue. Simple explanations only satisfy simple minds.
And how come you "know" such a thing? Please, enlighten us then to your own illumination, such as Miss Doyle has. --------------------- Signature removed due to incorrect size (400X120px and 24000 bytes). Please review the forum rules or e-mail us with any questions. You can view you signature here - Petwraith Ordo Quaesitoris Forum |
DeadRow
Magnificent Beavers Exquisite Malevolence
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Posted - 2007.04.01 23:07:00 -
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Edited by: DeadRow on 01/04/2007 23:03:53 Good luck on your travels Kaleigh, hope you find what you seek. However, I fear this Promised Land only conquered or destroyed by people who are not worthy of such a place. Not too unlike a certain individual and his dream for a better universe that was destroyed by a team effort of all Empires. /DeadRow
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