Jexit
Minmatar
Jericho Fraction
The Star Fraction
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Posted - 2011.04.03 09:57:00 -
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06:23 Eve Standard Time
Jexit wakes up on the floor of La Maison. Several hours earlier, she'd passed out in her chair during the course of a Vitoc high. The establishment is empty now. The ice in her glass is melted.
She blinks rapidly, working to focus her vision and acquire her bearings. Standing uneasily, she stumbles to the nearest waste receptacle, retches several times, but produces nothing.
"Oh.. that's right. Lucky me," as she recalls not having eaten anything the night before.
She slumps into a nearby seat and fumbles for her pocket neocom. She brings up a passworded document labeled "Inspirations". She scrolls down the screen and, arriving at the end of a long list, adds two more items:
- Multi-Consciousness (has this been done?)
- Pseudo-Vitoxin structure: STUPID mistake, remind self (R)-1-(benzo[d][1,3]dioxol-5-yl)-N-methylpropan-2-amine and (S)-1-(benzo[d][1,3]dioxol-5-yl)-N-methylpropan-2-amine (delta agonist gene is totally superfluous! I think.)
She closes that document and starts a new one. She stares into the pristine emptiness of the blank screen. Like fresh snowfall. Untouched. Fragile and defenseless. Quivering in anticipation of that first step. That irrevocable footprint. The inevitable trail of chaos that would follow. Burned across the pure white landscape like a jagged, bleeding scar on Amarrian skin.
The words seem to arrive in her head with a sudden impact. Jexit begins typing rapidly:
Last night, Evangeline asked what attracted me to these anarchists (The Star Fraction).
SCIENCE!
Exploration, experience, experimentation!
But I'll get to that.
First, consider this: New Eden is full of dead-end people, working tirelessly (or indenturing others to do so) toward "ends" which have no value, no purpose, and no fulfillment. The quest for endless mountains of ISK. The struggle to acquire vast expanses of known space and hold onto them. Why? What's the next step? After we've acquired all the money and "land" in New Eden, what do we do with it? Sit on our mountain with our thumbs up our asses and gloat? Is that the grand prize?
Is it about security? Safety? Once we have security, what will we have gained by it? We'll *finally* be able to sit around and STARE at each other without worry of *bad* things happening to us. Oh joy! Certainly sounds like paradise, don't it???
NO! I refuse to accept this as the pinnacle to which the human race aspires.
Life is to be LIVED. What satisfaction is there to be had in security? What experience therein which can't be rivaled (or beaten) by the rush of danger? What comfort in xenophobia can trump the thrill of new encounters? What indulgences can wealth provide to sate the boundless curiosity of the mind?
I don't understand the finer points of politics. But I can see clearly that the laws and ideas enforced by any governmental system in New Eden have the unconscionable effect of limiting the possible experiences of life. Bans against the use of drugs. Constraints on the proliferation of new technology. And yes, the very limitations on who may travel where, and when.
Experience IS life. And with that in mind, I've made it my goal to explore the human condition. And to experiment on it. To unlock new experiences for myself and for everyone. Experiences which may not have been possible before certain breakthroughs in the biological and technological sciences. Even experiences which, quite simply, no one ever thought to try.
This is my quest. A life thoroughly lived. And the opportunity for anyone and everyone else to have the same, should they so choose.
And THAT is why I found myself attracted to The Star Fraction.
- Jexit
She presses the "SEND TO ALL" button with authority, then plops the neocom face-down on the table. She buries her face in her hands. Her eyes are burning and her stomach growling.
She slides her right hand down into her boot and produces a small bag of pre-measured Vitoc capsules...
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