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Mad Hermit Wayward Alliance
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Posted - 2010.11.20 07:02:00 -
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Damn it... I really feel you, and I want to write a reply. But I keep asking myself "what's the point?". That, if anything, should be an indication that I feel pretty much the same way you do. (and quite a few others it seems).
Nothing is of any real interest to me atm, I think the best way I can summarise my feelings atm is "I want to want (to do) stuff". But I don't, I have everything I want (nothing). The only things I want is the stuff of my imagination (sci-fi/hero/whatever stuff), but even those things lose their charm after (over-)analysing them for a bit...
Maybe I'm worried that while I'm perfectly happy doing little but work-eat-sleep right now I may one day wake up and wonder what the hell I did with my life. I want to do something about that, but I can't for the life of me figure out what. Travel? No, can't be bothered/there's nothing I want to see badly enough. Get a different job? No, the current one is fine. Move and get a new life? Yeah, that does have some appeal but I'm sure I'll fall back into the same pattern once I get settled in. Same things goes for minor day-to-day stuff.
Apathy seems to be both a blessing and a curse. You're never truly unhappy, but you always have that cloud of pointlessness on the horizon... Can't help but wonder if this is a modern developed world thing, or did people get this when life was harder?
Anyway, I hope we all figure this stuff out, but until then I'll just... carry on.
fake edit: wow, my post sounds really depressing... It's not that I really am depressed or can't get a great deal of joy out of things (I do), it's just that, looking at the bigger picture, I don't know what I want or what I should strive for. Also, I was about to press "Cancel" about a dozen times, but I guess I needed to get this off my chest.
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Mad Hermit Wayward Alliance
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Posted - 2010.11.20 07:32:00 -
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Originally by: Akita T Heh, I wonder what a person from 100, or just 50 years ago would have said if he'd read all of this... he'd probably start screaming that we're idiots and we have everything but can't realize it.
Yep, that's what I'm thinking. Maybe we need a nuclear holocaust or zombie apocalypse or some-such kick in the backside to get our priorities straight. 
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