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Anslo
Scope Works
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Posted - 2014.08.19 15:45:00 -
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Omar Alharazaad wrote:Oh. Well. Then. GTFO. huehue
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Reaver Glitterstim
Dromedaworks inc Test Alliance Please Ignore
1772
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Posted - 2014.08.19 15:52:00 -
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EVE certainly helps me get through my life. Sometimes it provides for me an outlet for my desire to be a force for good, sometimes it gives me a place to use violence to right wrongs, sometimes it lets me sink into the fold and go with the flow in a grander scheme that I may not support. I have an innate desire to do all of these things but sometimes I avoid them in normal life because of the long-term impacts of my actions, or the difficulty in their completion. Alternatively, these forums provide for me the Out of Pod Experience, where I can talk about anything that's important to me, and have so many of you from all over the world listen to me and talk back, recounting your experiences. That's one of the things I treasure most of everything I have. Fit a warfare link to your tech 1 battlecruiser. Train Wing Commander. Get in the Squad Commander or Wing Commander position. Your fleets will be superior to everyone else's. (had this sig BEFORE Odyssey BC rebalance) "What if [climate change is] a big hoax and we create a better world for nothing?" -comic on Greenmonk |
Eurydia Vespasian
Storm Hunters Disturbed Acquaintance
10382
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Posted - 2014.08.19 15:55:00 -
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Another thing I do a lot is cherish simple pleasures in life. I love being outside with sun on my face and wind in my hair. Walking or biking the trails around the lake. Listening to the sounds of the world. A cup of coffee sitting out on the swing, fog rolling over the water. I also take great pleasures in music and writing. I cope with most of the negative stuff that happens to me through those. I listen to music that lets me escape or I vent it all out in writing.
I'm also not opposed to having a few drinks to take the edge off |
Pepper Swift
Special Projects Industry and Exploration
27334
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Posted - 2014.08.19 15:55:00 -
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Reaver Glitterstim wrote:EVE certainly helps me get through my life. Sometimes it provides for me an outlet for my desire to be a force for good, sometimes it gives me a place to use violence to right wrongs, sometimes it lets me sink into the fold and go with the flow in a grander scheme that I may not support. I have an innate desire to do all of these things but sometimes I avoid them in normal life because of the long-term impacts of my actions, or the difficulty in their completion. Alternatively, these forums provide for me the Out of Pod Experience, where I can talk about anything that's important to me, and have so many of you from all over the world listen to me and talk back, recounting your experiences. That's one of the things I treasure most of everything I have.
*hugs* Signature Space For Rent...-á When life gives you melons you might be-ádyslexic |
Dersen Lowery
Drinking in Station
1199
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Posted - 2014.08.19 16:10:00 -
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Making and listening to art, especially music. The chance to leave the world better than I found it. Friends. Family. God.
A wide streak of mulish stubbornness hasn't hurt.
Objectively speaking, mine is a life of privilege, but sometimes that's its own kind of weight: if I have all this going for me that other people would kill for, why am I not doing more with it? Other people have to work twice as hard to get half the credit; what's my excuse? As a natural depressive I don't like negative motivators much, but sometimes those question lights a fire under me.
Proud founder and member of the Belligerent Desirables. |
Reaver Glitterstim
Dromedaworks inc Test Alliance Please Ignore
1772
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Posted - 2014.08.19 16:36:00 -
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Pepper Swift wrote:*hugs* *hugs back, squeezing super tightly* Fit a warfare link to your tech 1 battlecruiser. Train Wing Commander. Get in the Squad Commander or Wing Commander position. Your fleets will be superior to everyone else's. (had this sig BEFORE Odyssey BC rebalance) "What if [climate change is] a big hoax and we create a better world for nothing?" -comic on Greenmonk |
Ralph King-Griffin
Lords.Of.Midnight The Devil's Warrior Alliance
4041
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Posted - 2014.08.19 16:43:00 -
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Reaver Glitterstim wrote:Pepper Swift wrote:*hugs* *hugs back, squeezing super tightly* relevant =][= |
Omar Alharazaad
Lords.Of.Midnight The Devil's Warrior Alliance
354
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Posted - 2014.08.19 16:44:00 -
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I may blow you you up, but ultimately I love you guys. Just don't hate me for getting your pod goo all over my windscreen. |
Omar Alharazaad
Lords.Of.Midnight The Devil's Warrior Alliance
354
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Posted - 2014.08.19 16:45:00 -
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and once again. RALPH GET THE F*CK out of my HEAD! |
ShahFluffers
Ice Fire Warriors Late Night Alliance
5932
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Posted - 2014.08.19 17:34:00 -
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What keeps me going?
Sheer force of will.
Honestly though... sometimes I just wonder where I am going and hope that it will become more clear as I continue paddling through the rapids of life. Playing EVE is, for me, pulling my boat up on the shore and just huddling next to a campfire of predictable insanity. Change isn't bad, but it isn't always good. Sometimes, the oldest and most simple of things can be the most elegant and effective.
"How did you veterans start?" |
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Nissui
71
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Posted - 2014.08.19 18:57:00 -
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Reaver Glitterstim wrote:What gives you the strength to carry on? "So little time, so much to know!" |
Desivo Delta Visseroff
The Scope Gallente Federation
274
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Posted - 2014.08.19 19:10:00 -
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Equal parts Adaptability, Perseverance & Stubbornness.
Most importantly, I learned long ago, to just let things go. I simplified, saved and live comfortably without wants or expensive shiny things. The result? I have more than my peers. Maybe nothing new and shiny, but I don't have to kill myself working 40+hrs to have it all I was hunting for sick loot, but all I could get my hands on were 50 corpses.............. |
Kucial Ghavera
Stillwater Corporation
76
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Posted - 2014.08.19 21:03:00 -
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Inability to know. What is to be discovered Never cold, stopping |
Malaclypse Muscaria
Royal Amarr Institute Amarr Empire
145
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Posted - 2014.08.20 02:35:00 -
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Caffeine.
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Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
141
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Posted - 2014.08.20 22:30:00 -
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Instinctive will to live. I don't want to die, so I'm here for good. (until I die)
So since I'm here, it only makes sense to live the best possible life that I can. Which means enjoying myself no matter what I am doing, which is something that I seem to have forgotten how to do for a while there. It was like I became someone else other than myself for like a year or so. Now I feel like I've come full circle and become the person who I am supposed to be.
"Then comes the question of is it nature or is it nurture? How do you become who you already are? It's both, it's an evolution."
I partied and chased girls for almost a whole year and then I realized what I was doing was not only stupid but it just wasn't me. I'm an adult now, 230 pounds of muscle with a full beard but it's like I went back to how I was when I was a kid playing games and reading books all day at home. I've become my SELF, but it's like a much more hardcore version of myself, like a super saiyan version of myself.
I treat art like a study session. I play games to learn about people, including my self. Same with reading books, I love fiction and just reading is one of my favourite things to do. Movies, music, anything like that, I love. I've started drawing all kinds of crazy pictures in crayon. I want to start painting but it's really hard.
I live life almost like a zombie movie now, it's improvisation to the max, and one thing I've worked on SO hard is "not giving a ****". Because I'm such a shy, nice person it's hard to not give a ****, especially around lots of people or around people you don't know. I think I suffer from minor social anxiety, as well as some other social disorders such as ADHD, aspergers, OCD, and maybe a few other things.
**** all that. I try to say whatever I want whenever I want to whoever I want, it's almost like I don't give a **** what people think, but it's not quite that because I actually do care what people think. But it's more important to me to be myself than it is to act a certain way to please people.
Some people who don't like me have called me fake and arrogant and stuff like that. Before I used to argue, or try to reason with people. But a guy called me a "fake person" the other day, and instead of what I usually would have said, my response was, "yeah, I am fake. What's your point? You gonna do something about it?"
What's wrong with being fake? We are ALL fake to an extant. If you've told a lie once in your life you are fake.
I think of people as shapes. Most people are squares, because they have a few main sides that they show. So then I thought, well I'm just a hexagon or an octagon or something, I have more sides than other people.
That was close but that wasn't it. People are shapes, with a certain amount of sides that they show people, maybe it's 3 sides or 4 sides or 8 sides, but me, I'm a circle, or a sphere. I have no sides, I just do and say what I want and I don't really care what you think about it because the important thing is what I think about it. A perfect circle.
I'm ranting so much here. Not even sure what I'm talking about here any more. I keep going because I've got to make some money some how.
So here are some priorities
1. Enjoying your life (this can be done in so many different ways) 2. Making money 3. Family and friends are very important. This should be under the "enjoying life" category. 4. I love ART 5. Eve Online counts as art.
This is such a huge question I can't just answer it with one sentence. Unless it's a joke sentence like "caffeine" or "spite". __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
Slade Trillgon
Brutor Force Federated
3111
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Posted - 2014.08.20 23:13:00 -
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Ares Desideratus wrote:Instinctive will to live. I don't want to die, so I'm here for good. (until I die) So since I'm here, it only makes sense to live the best possible life that I can. Which means enjoying myself no matter what I am doing, which is something that I seem to have forgotten how to do for a while there. It was like I became someone else other than myself for like a year or so. Now I feel like I've come full circle and become the person who I am supposed to be. "Then comes the question of is it nature or is it nurture? How do you become who you already are? It's both, it's an evolution." I partied and chased girls for almost a whole year and then I realized what I was doing was not only stupid but it just wasn't me. I'm an adult now, 230 pounds of muscle with a full beard but it's like I went back to how I was when I was a kid playing games and reading books all day at home. I've become my SELF, but it's like a much more hardcore version of myself, like a super saiyan version of myself. I treat art like a study session. I play games to learn about people, including my self. Same with reading books, I love fiction and just reading is one of my favourite things to do. Movies, music, anything like that, I love. I've started drawing all kinds of crazy pictures in crayon. I want to start painting but it's really hard. I live life almost like a zombie movie now, it's improvisation to the max, and one thing I've worked on SO hard is "not giving a ****". Because I'm such a shy, nice person it's hard to not give a ****, especially around lots of people or around people you don't know. I think I suffer from minor social anxiety, as well as some other social disorders such as ADHD, aspergers, OCD, and maybe a few other things. **** all that. I try to say whatever I want whenever I want to whoever I want, it's almost like I don't give a **** what people think, but it's not quite that because I actually do care what people think. But it's more important to me to be myself than it is to act a certain way to please people. Some people who don't like me have called me fake and arrogant and stuff like that. Before I used to argue, or try to reason with people. But a guy called me a "fake person" the other day, and instead of what I usually would have said, my response was, "yeah, I am fake. What's your point? You gonna do something about it?" What's wrong with being fake? We are ALL fake to an extant. If you've told a lie once in your life you are fake. I think of people as shapes. Most people are squares, because they have a few main sides that they show. So then I thought, well I'm just a hexagon or an octagon or something, I have more sides than other people. That was close but that wasn't it. People are shapes, with a certain amount of sides that they show people, maybe it's 3 sides or 4 sides or 8 sides, but me, I'm a circle, or a sphere. I have no sides, I just do and say what I want and I don't really care what you think about it because the important thing is what I think about it. A perfect circle. I'm ranting so much here. Not even sure what I'm talking about here any more. I keep going because I've got to make some money some how. So here are some priorities 1. Enjoying your life (this can be done in so many different ways) 2. Making money 3. Family and friends are very important. This should be under the "enjoying life" category. 4. I love ART 5. Eve Online counts as art. This is such a huge question I can't just answer it with one sentence. Unless it's a joke sentence like "caffeine" or "spite".
I find a lot of me in your post. A lot of the same thoughts. I feel like I would be where you are today if I did not have my wonderful 2.5 year old daughter. No matter how much strife the relationship with here mother brought to the surface, I enjoy every minute with my daughter and will even dance at the Ice Cream stand or in the food line when she decides she wants to dance to the music.
The one thing that really struck a cord with me was that people have called me stuck up and arrogant in the past as well. I would also try to reason and so fourth, but now I am just straight up about it; whatever it may be at the ti |
Jace Sarice
Sarshitra Corporation
3464
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Posted - 2014.08.21 01:48:00 -
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Hell if I know. I do not care what you think as long as it is about me. |
Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
142
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Posted - 2014.08.21 01:56:00 -
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Slade Trillgon wrote: I find a lot of me in your post. A lot of the same thoughts. I feel like I would be where you are today if I did not have my wonderful 2.5 year old daughter. No matter how much strife the relationship with here mother brought to the surface, I enjoy every minute with my daughter and will even dance at the Ice Cream stand or in the food line when she decides she wants to dance to the music.
The one thing that really struck a cord with me was that people have called me stuck up and arrogant in the past as well. I would also try to reason and so fourth, but now I am just straight up about it; whatever it may be at the ti I liked your post but it looks like it is unfinished at the end there, maybe a forum glitch or something. __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
vicuneo
Sunburn Industries
23
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Posted - 2014.08.21 02:09:00 -
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Ralph King-Griffin wrote:Omar Alharazaad wrote:Spite. I'll say this, and the grim determination to see most of the people I know buried.
Couldn't have said it better myself. |
Derrick Miles
EVENumbers
2640
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Posted - 2014.08.21 07:43:00 -
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Booze and pills. |
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Sibyyl
Gallente Federation
6915
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Posted - 2014.08.21 10:11:00 -
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Derrick Miles wrote:Booze and pills.
hugs ~ we're flying high, we're watching the world pass us by ~
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Reaver Glitterstim
Dromedaworks inc Test Alliance Please Ignore
1777
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Posted - 2014.08.21 11:06:00 -
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One thing that keeps me going is the hope for better things. Hordes of blathering idiots clamoring for their own destitution can't bring me down when I catch a glimmer of just one person who can see past it, even if that person is incapable of doing anything about it. Hope is a glimmering star, and I can see it across the great nothingness of depressing normality. Fit a warfare link to your tech 1 battlecruiser. Train Wing Commander. Get in the Squad Commander or Wing Commander position. Your fleets will be superior to everyone else's. (had this sig BEFORE Odyssey BC rebalance) "What if [climate change is] a big hoax and we create a better world for nothing?" -comic on Greenmonk |
Slade Trillgon
Brutor Force Federated
3116
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Posted - 2014.08.21 12:24:00 -
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Ares Desideratus wrote:Slade Trillgon wrote: I find a lot of me in your post. A lot of the same thoughts. I feel like I would be where you are today if I did not have my wonderful 2.5 year old daughter. No matter how much strife the relationship with here mother brought to the surface, I enjoy every minute with my daughter and will even dance at the Ice Cream stand or in the food line when she decides she wants to dance to the music.
The one thing that really struck a cord with me was that people have called me stuck up and arrogant in the past as well. I would also try to reason and so fourth, but now I am just straight up about it; whatever it may be at the ti I liked your post but it looks like it is unfinished at the end there, maybe a forum glitch or something.
'time.' is how that should have ended.
I will elaborate a little. I have read a lot of history in my life and usually if I read one side of the history of something I try to dig up something written by someone on the opposite side. I have read and researched a lot in the biology of plant and animal life and watched numerous documentaries on so many things it is not funny. I have heavily read much on anthropology and sociology. I have been in the audience for countless speakers and discussion panels, my favorite being Jane Goodall. I have read much on what many call counter cultures within my society. I also find myself able to separate myself from my surroundings and culture and experience things through the words and eyes of others. Walking in other's shoes and such. All of this reading and self education was because as a adolescent my health was very bad due to my battle with Crohn's Disease and I buried, aka shielded, myself with knowledge while my friends and peers were enjoying the 'normal' life adolescents of my time lived, sex, drugs, alcohol... Trust me, I am no angle; I participated in much of those aspects of life in my 20's so I am not completely without the more social educational experiences either.
Due to all this reading, viewing and discussion with superiors, I am very comfortable having discussions about so many things and feel like I can speak, not as a professional on most of the subjects I am familiar with, but that I can speak with strong conviction. If I am in a conversation with someone that is educated heavily on a topic I am familiar with I am able to participate but I take a position of a student, I listen and take in what they say and add it to my file while being able to have an expanding conversation on whatever the topic may be. When I have conversation with people on a topic where neither of us are a 'trained professional' I sometimes speak with more conviction then maybe I should but never pose as someone in a position of authority. People have called me arrogant because I can talk about so many things with confidence, people I would call friends, and it used to bother me. I used to try rationalize this with my friends, but now I just tell people they need to read more if they want to feel more comfortable in their daily conversations. |
Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
145
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Posted - 2014.08.21 14:52:00 -
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Slade Trillgon wrote: Due to all this reading, viewing and discussion with superiors, I am very comfortable having discussions about so many things and feel like I can speak, not as a professional on most of the subjects I am familiar with, but that I can speak with strong conviction. If I am in a conversation with someone that is educated heavily on a topic I am familiar with I am able to participate but I take a position of a student, I listen and take in what they say and add it to my file while being able to have an expanding conversation on whatever the topic may be. When I have conversation with people on a topic where neither of us are a 'trained professional' I sometimes speak with more conviction then maybe I should but never pose as someone in a position of authority. People have called me arrogant because I can talk about so many things with confidence, people I would call friends, and it used to bother me. I used to try rationalize this with my friends, but now I just tell people they need to read more if they want to feel more comfortable in their daily conversations. I do the same thing kind of. Anything I'm interested in, I try to read and find out as much as I can about it in order to be able to discuss it with people. If I'm really interested in something, it's like I need to know EVERYTHING about it.
This way I can kind of have a "normal" conversation about something. In a lot of ways, I am what you would call a "social ******". I'm very awkward, quiet, etc. It's like I can't talk to people unless I get to know them very well and feel comfortable with them. Even the most outgoing person turns quiet around me because of my stoic nature.
Like some other guy in this thread said, though, I haven't really had much struggle in my life, so I can't complain at all. When I was a kid living with my mom, there was a little bit of bullshit, like the house was constantly a disaster because she was horribly disorganized and when she got into drugs and partying I would wake up in the middle of the night with no one at home (or worse - a bunch of weirdos I don't know at my home partying). Other than that my life has been ******* amazing.
In a way, a part of what keeps me going, is that I want to show people that I am better than they are. I want people to feel my superiority some how. __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
Reaver Glitterstim
Dromedaworks inc Test Alliance Please Ignore
1780
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Posted - 2014.08.21 17:41:00 -
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Just because it has been easy for you to maintain and sustain your life force does not mean your life has been a bed of roses. Some of the most physically challenging times in my life have been the most emotionally unstressful, and therefore those were the times when my life was easiest. The times when I consistently failed to measure up and was told to keep trying, and my performance was measured and I saw a continuous improvement, those were the times I felt the best. But when I consistently failed to measure up due only to a lack of leadership and an inability to determine what I was supposed to be doing, and all the blame was thrust on me, that was when I felt the worst. Fit a warfare link to your tech 1 battlecruiser. Train Wing Commander. Get in the Squad Commander or Wing Commander position. Your fleets will be superior to everyone else's. (had this sig BEFORE Odyssey BC rebalance) "What if [climate change is] a big hoax and we create a better world for nothing?" -comic on Greenmonk |
Random Nardieu
Lone Star Warriors Yulai Federation
1
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Posted - 2014.08.22 17:16:00 -
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Spending the night on the balcony, with some quality ganja and my favorite hiphop blasting through me headphones, It gets me trough rough times for over 8 years. |
Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
148
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Posted - 2014.08.22 17:21:00 -
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Random Nardieu wrote:Spending the night on the balcony, with some quality ganja and my favorite hiphop blasting through me headphones, It gets me trough rough times for over 8 years. Just hip hop? No metal? No disco? __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
148
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Posted - 2014.08.22 17:23:00 -
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Ares Desideratus wrote: In a way, a part of what keeps me going, is that I want to show people that I am better than they are. I want people to feel my superiority some how.
I just realized this idea can basically fall under spite. __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
Random Nardieu
Lone Star Warriors Yulai Federation
1
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Posted - 2014.08.22 18:14:00 -
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Ares Desideratus wrote:Random Nardieu wrote:Spending the night on the balcony, with some quality ganja and my favorite hiphop blasting through me headphones, It gets me trough rough times for over 8 years. Just hip hop? No metal? No disco? Not everyone that games like metal ;) |
Ares Desideratus
Blue Republic RvB - BLUE Republic
152
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Posted - 2014.08.22 19:43:00 -
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Random Nardieu wrote:Ares Desideratus wrote:Random Nardieu wrote:Spending the night on the balcony, with some quality ganja and my favorite hiphop blasting through me headphones, It gets me trough rough times for over 8 years. Just hip hop? No metal? No disco? Not everyone that games like metal ;) You dont like any metal at all? __Marilyn Manson (Born Villain) __System of a Down (SoaD) a+üa¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ça¦ç_Arcade Fire (Reflektor) |
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