Originally by: Celestial Demon

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I wrote this page long post how eves community is turning to garbage and the reasons but took a deep breath and Deleted it. I realized I need to deal with the root of the problem and stop complaining about random stuff.

Il need to clarify 1 thing before you guys read this, I have played eve since early 2004 but recently started a new account for certain reasons.


I in my time have taken few breaks from eve, always coming back a few weeks later if i felt burnt out.

This time though its not like that, I came back after a break and was bored right off the bat and annoyed more than ever with having to deal with players that were much nastier than I remember.

I Took another break and came back and was still bored, I tried to force myself to play but quickly got frustrated dealing with some of the losers in the game.

I wish I wanted to keep playing, but I feel like the game has nothing for me any more at all no matter how much I try to find something.

This morning I realized what kind of toll this is taking on me.

I was in Amarr and some guy dishonored a 1 vs 1 by having his corp mate kill me at the end.

I lost control and Cursed them out in local, I typed out a bunch of full curses out of pure anger and logged off carrying that anger into Real life.

This wouldn't be even close to the first time i lost control of myself and carried the angry with me and took it out on people I lived with by yelling at them for stupid things.

For my own mental health I cannot let a online game take control of me like that

For my own good and everyone else's I think its time I walked away

The problem is I can't , I have quit so many times, and every time I manage to stay away from weeks to a few months but ALWAYS end up coming back to be Burned again.

I really don't know what to do, I don't have any self control either.

Im wondering if I should even ask a senior GM to IP BAN ME so I can't ever play again.

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